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Well tommarow is valentines day....not really lookin foward to it at school...well michael said he was going to buy me 2 roses...so thats cool..and then after school imma go see my babe :) yea yea niiiiiigga well Happy Valentines to everyone...hope u guys have a special and romantic day. ;)

I kinda wish i had somebody..

Someone to understand me.

Someone to BE understanding.

Sometimes i think maybe this time it will be different..but it never is...

I wish my life was easy...but its so fuckin hard.

I wish i had someone...someone i could tell anythign to.

I wish i could have someone to be there by my side every step of the way.

I wish i could just go away and never come back...leaving and become a mystery.

HEH. its not like anyone would care anyway.

i felt like cutting myself again last nite...but i didn't. i just thought about wat everyone told me if i did do it again. but its not like anyone notices anyway.

My pain is just to severe. i wish i could have sum help..why cant i ever really be happy! why do i always have to pretend...its just a habit now i guess. it hurt to cry yesterday.. i didnt want to cry but the pressure...all i could was cry.

 I wish God could help me. but he cant.

i wake up depressed, hoping something would change to make me happy but nothing does...im just a depressed little fuck that no one cares about. maybe i just need a break? from everything and everyone. a little vacation i guess u could say? a little vacation in a puddle of my own blood. maybe.

well i guess.. no one will read this and give a fuck anyway so i post it. and say goodbye.

Shiny. Tristan. Herrera.

ahhhh its kara. im taking over now. today shannon woke up and it was really windy outside and her dogs were getting on her nerves. she was dissapointed because the hurricane was not as bad as predicted. and she had like a million gallons of water saved up. lame. anyways, she was like KARA COME OVER IM BORED. so then i finished my yard and i came and shannon. and we drove around for a while. then we went to my house. and then we watched anchorman. and then shannons mom came and picked us up. and we went to heb. then we went to get pizza. then we went to her gmas house. and now we came home and we took a shower. ( seperately ) and that concludes shannon day.

i love you shannon <3 BFF

-kaaaaaaraaaaaaaaaaa

One year!

can you guys believe it? ONE YEAR!!!!!! I love you patrick!